“Favour is deceitful, and beauty is vain: but a woman that feareth the Lord, she shall be praised.”
Proverbs 31:30 KJV
I thought I knew something about being a woman of God because I was raised in the church. Oh my, was I wrong! Culture shock at its finest is what I faced as I drew nearer to the women of God from my church.
Seriously, they were mentioning this online boutique that they liked because their dresses were modest. Here I was, preparing for a bikini competition that I’d participate in the next month. Modest? Come on girls, it’s not the 50’s. I found it humorous that they seriously cared how long their dress was. We all know that you shouldn’t show much cleavage and when your arms are down your fingertips should be near the end of your dress, if you’re going to church. Save your short dresses for dinner dates and beach trips.
Have you ever tried to do what you want AND draw near the Lord at the same time? Ha, me too!
At this time, I was training two times a day and spent hours meal prepping each week. I was clearly creating my own form of a God. I’m grateful that the one and only Lord and savior is a jealous God. He was NOT having it.
I was becoming uncomfortable with the idea of putting my body on stage, in a bikini. I heard the Lord telling me that I could not do this bikini competition. I prayed about it, asked for advice from people at the church, and knew I had to stop immediately. This was the first step towards the woman I was becoming. The Lord NEEDED to see I was willing to give up this competition. Despite the hours I sacrificed, the thousands of dollars that had been spent, and the miles I’d traveled… I did not have a choice but to give it up.
I truly believe that my willingness to hear His voice is the reason He’s blessed me with a Godly man. I can’t help but feel comfort in the decision I made. My conscious won’t let me dress immodestly. My fear of the Lord gives me comfort in my coverage. This desire to be seen as a light in the world prevents me from dressing in a way that doesn’t glorify Him.
As Christians, we HAVE TO do whatever we can do to proclaim, represent, and confirm that He is alive in us!